Understanding (My) Perseverating Thoughts

Posted on June 25, 2013 by Angel

I have been reading Safety Skills for Asperger Women: How to Save a Perfectly Good Female Life for months. Literally, I got it for my birthday in March and I have been reading it this long. There is so much information that has helped me that I have gone back and reread it. Some chapters I have camped out at for a while. There are so many confirmations and answers that I needed at this leg in my journey in life. Liane Holliday Willey’s book Pretending to Be Normal: Living With Asperger’s Syndrome was one of the first books I read where I began to realize without a doubt that I was an Aspergers woman. There were some indications that other books gave me, but when I read hers, it rang within in my spirit and I finally had some sort of new understanding about myself.

However, it took several years later to get my official diagnosis and then, the path to acceptance for myself. 

I am still on an acceptance path. I gain new understanding about myself continually. Many times the way my brain works is that I write about it days, months, and yes, even sometimes years in advance before I am able to connect to what I am actually trying to discover about myself. My recent findings have been in the last three months. I have changed drastically in my real life. Some days I am not so strong, but those days are far less now. I no longer keep quiet about what hurts me, things that feel like mistreatments, or jokes/jabs that hurt me.

I speak up and tell people not to talk to me like that.

Continued ... Understanding (My) Perseverating Thoughts