I was doing fairly well last week, I had a lot going on so I did not have much time to consider the other things that were silently lingering in the back of mind. There was another silent, but loud at moments, thing that was going off in the underlying of my mind. It was the thought, How many times do I have to loop about this? It has been since childhood! Of course, it ruminated for a little while and the more it trickled its voice into my head the more that the internalized triggers and outward triggers started to explode bombs through my amygdala. The additional information from emotions, sensory, and environmental change were also at play. We have had terrible storms come through, but it was beautiful and warm for several days as well. I love being outside in the warmth, when it is nice outside that is where you will find me.
However, when the weather suddenly changes, pressures get all out of sorts, the temperature drops my mood goes with it.
(Daniel gets affected by weather changes too and his anxieties rise.) Even during some of my most anxiety ridden or challenging depressive times, I would find some hope and peace in the great outdoors, I love the sun. Weather changes make a huge impact on me. This year has been a mess of hot and cold and unpredictable weather patterns which, is contributing to my anxiety. I am also, “silently” processing in certain parts of my mind the fact that I finally openly shared on my personal facebook page with family and older friends that I am diagnosed Aspergers. I went further and emailed my dad as well. Those alone are lingering anxiety webs that are attached to many triggers no matter if the outcomes were to be positive, negative, or neutral – there is no way around me going through anxiety with that. Overall doing that has been good for me and given me a new confidence.
I can tell you all of this.Continued ... The Relational Loop – Panic Trigger
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