When I Have Loved, It Seemed Obsessive

This is a collaboration of thoughts that have been spinning through my head. They have been brewing for over two years now so who knows where I will end up.  The last post helped bring myself a bit more understanding about how intense my love can be. As I was traveling through my past trying to understand some of my behaviors, I realized how few relationships I have had. When I think of school and my younger years, I do not recall any lasting relationships.

The longest friendships I had were during third to fourth grade.

I had a group of girls who were my friends, but by the start of fifth grade, I had none. I did manage to find two friends around the end of that year into sixth grade, but it was short-lived. They had been best friends since the beginning of second grade. They lived in the same neighborhood too. I really had no chance of staying friends with them because of my own social confusion and because I did not live close to them.

I could not keep connection. 

Continued ... When I Have Loved, It Seemed Obsessive