Off The Top Of My Head

In my “spare” time, I have been reading several articles on Psychology Today andPsych Central. I tend to read them on a regular basis. Although they have trumped my science, tech, and various types of blog reading lately. My mind has been really consumed with relationships. My thoughts tend to linger into my inability to categorize them and put them in their proper place. I am either very hard or extremely sensitive, when it comes to my dealings with relationships. Finding a balance has been my goal; however, it is taking much longer than I expected.

I forget that relationships cannot be categorized into simplistic diagrams.

I have to remind myself that they can be complex and are unique to every individual. I seem to have some sort of ideal in my head and expect it to happen immediately. When it does not I get derailed, if the person does not do what I expect I get derailed. I also get derailed with random things that I now connect as triggers. An action (inaction, word, phrase, picture, phone message, email, etc… can cause me to go down a path of negativity and pain. Many times I am not sure what it is that has hurt me. I only feel like my heart hurts and my mind starts spinning.

I can place the trigger, but I am unsure as to what the emotion is or why it hurts.

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