“Sometimes I Feel Beep”

This weekend I have been struggling with emotions. I know, big surprise! I have no idea what I am actually feeling and I keep wavering with a flux of feelings. One moment I am fine, the next I am irritated, the next too fatigued to even feel anything, the next joyful, the next angry, the next sad, back to feeling some sort of jollity. I have no explanation; frankly I am tired of analyzing myself so I am not going to. I have too much to do and the reality is this is what my brain does. I can break down into great detail every single thing that is causing me to feel such a multiplex of emotions, however; today it can be summed up to this – it is December.

That is all.

This month holds too many traumas, confusing social experiences, too much sensory sensations and cold weather. Those wrapped up into a big blanket of unresolved pain, confusion, overwhelming intensities of joy and love, enhanced by anxieties all sweep around and through me creating a vortex of emotional whirling. So when Joshua handed me a piece of paper that read,

“I love you. But sometimes I feel like I’m beep.” 

Continued ... “Sometimes I Feel Beep”